A song tt always remind me… my UK life in 2002. Dedicate this song to those whose shares de happy moments v me, And my best wishes to you all. Love you all! ^_^回到过去 by 周杰伦
一盏黄黄旧旧的灯时间在旁闷不吭声寂寞下手毫无分寸
不懂得轻重之分沉默支撑跃过陌生
静静看著凌晨黄昏你的身影失去平衡慢慢下沉
黑暗已在空中盘旋该往哪我看不见
也许爱在梦的另一端无法存活在真实的空间
想回到过去试著抱你在怀里羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你的看的世界,想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜想回到过去试著让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧这样挽留不知还来不来得及想回到过去
思绪不断阻挡著回忆播放盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去
一转身孤单已躺在身旁
What a long holidays. How’s ya holiday, mate. I hope u have a good one. Basically it was kinda bored for the pass few days, beside travel to south & meeting friends.
Dined with friends on last Saturday, n we discussed some topics, of coz some problems as well. Friend said, it kinda tired & bored trying to fix things for others. It is jz unnecessary & shouldn’t be bear by one shoulder.
Sure, u could choose to flail abt & try to fight to put things back into the little boxes u want them to live in, but what’s the point? you’ll only tire yaself out.
I’m not telling u to be selfish. But we gonna let thing go, in some situation. Of course, u could give ya advices & opinions. but hey, it still up to them whether to take it or not. U cant do more than this. Or, it might bring hurts.
Sometime, ppl jz need our ears. Less opinion is preferable. And pls bear in mind, do not take de responsible to fix stuff for jz b’coz u worry they cant handle it. Yes, u can help but only if they really need helps. Or when they r in de wrong track. Bet ya frend is wise enough to face their problem.
U might not agree with me. What’s wrong we help frend when they r in troublem? Nothing wrong. But remember, everyone have their own way to fix thing up. Everyone have their own ruler in mind.
I’m not saying to push away all the responsibilities of as a frend. But this is crucial for us to know where should we stop for awhile, before continue to hang out.
Pal, don deprive yaself of surprises & spontaneous adventures. Sometime, knowing all the answers is not always advisable.
Im glad tt we did it. We see it with our own eyes… And yes, we all gets the meaning of life from this Handicapped & Mentally Disabled Children Association JB.
It was a meaningful trip. Meaningful day to Siz, especially. Of course, KS & me. De journey is ain’t far, coz we’re chatting & joking on our way to Senai. But, we all knows what is de main purpose of this trip. We are doing something tat we seldom do in our “bc life”. Yes, we all knew it. [Dear Siz, I not jz focused on seafoods... I really knew de main purpose...:(]
I aways agree with this, ” Don get kids, if u r not ready to be a mother/father”. Some much preparations b4 u see ya own kid, this is no joke.
R u prepared for some “unforesee” situation? Like de baby ain’t like others normal babies? What u gonna do if u’re so God damn bad luck?? Raise de kid & give double loves to him/her, or leave them behind. And u walk away???
Im not in emotion… Im jz see this lively examples in JB. It wa a strong wave coming toward us, and we felt de pains. Personally, I felt tt I am “useless” in that time.
Im a normal 29 year old male, but I got no fucking ideas what I can do, or what can i do… Fuck, I don like these feelings!
Looking to their smaling faces. Their naives. Their passions. I felt tt Im kinda stupid. I don know what shld i do. De question mark is getting bigger & bigger in my fucking mind.
I believe, 3 of us were in pain for seeing this. obverse, KS was de one with strongest feeling??? He’s jz quiet during the visit. While Siz & me still able to raised out some questions.
De centre is not only taking cares on children, but also old folks. With assistances from abt 30 angels. Most of the angels in de house are foreigners. Fr India, fr Sri Lanka, Fr Bangladesh… of course, local’s love as well.
Don feel me wrong when u heard they r fr India, Sri Langka, or Bangladesh… They ain’t like those foreign workers, working long hours but under treated nigga. They all here jz for the kids & old folks. They take cares of them, make sure they feels love.
Like de guy who guilded us during de visit. He is de person in charge of the centre (soli, I cant recall his name… sorry again). He’s fr Sri Langka, and he is with de centre for 3 yrs. Before this, he spend his 9 yrs services to other centers in Malaysia.
Let me call him “Angel” here, due to I 4gotten his name… Angel said, this ain’t an ec job… First of all, you must love this job. without this passion, u’re feel hard for the next step.
This task really need yr patience. Remember, most of them cant express their “thank you” to u. But u gotta give them uncut loves. Ask yaself, will u leave ya lover if he/she never show de same thing tt u gave them??? A stupid question, but its a straight forward question.
We spend abt 2 hrs there, and leave on 12pm. Their lunch time. Like de angel said, they cant say thank you to us. This doesn’t matter. We r happy… happy coz we’re able to make this trip happen. Happy to see they r lovely ppl ard them, willing to assist them! Happy to see they live happily. Happy tt I got my family, friends, ppl who love, caring me! And definately a Happy Birthday & meaningful trip to Siz Siz.
幸福,不是必然的. 我们真的要珍惜身边的一切一切. …
Frend suggested to head to JB on her b’day. She wanna send some stuff to de orphan home there. I was chucked a bit on that time (normal what…) Then, I agreed.
I think this is a cool idea. Do something special on ya b’day, beside jz partying or have fun v ya frends.
So, we plan to head there for day trip, maybe put a nite in JB if it is too late. Of course, “makan-makan” is another main point in this trip. hahaha! So, mate… U got any idea for good food in JB?? or along de way we head to JB??
Why don we jz send those stuff to de local orphan home? Well, it popped-up in my mind too, but I kill it. Well, she’s de “princess” on this day… so, we follow. More, it was long since de last time we out for trip. So, why not.
Im looking forward this trip, and hopefully my members can put it on de ground. And don forget to put down ya suggestions if u got any good food to recomment.
Selamat Hari Raya! And happy holiday!
Jz get de news tt Raja Petra was sent to Sg. Buloh for 2 fucking yrs. And de “Negarakuku” author - Wee Meng Chee was invited for kopi this morning as well.
Seems more Hu-Ha is coming up! And this is understandable. De BN govt is getting weak. Not only MCA, Gerakan, and other counterparts of BN shoutting to Unmo. More, Unmo also facing “reformasi”internally. Of couse, PR is waving their hands outside de house. Always.
They r too many facts and couse de current govt. doing something in hurried. And they r really got not much times to think twice. How sad.
Today is 23rd Sept 2008. Another date for Anwar after 916, 918. I don give a damn what’s excuse(s) or reason(s) tt he gonna give to de ppl. More or less, this is one of de fact that can put de govt in busy.
Well, our life is still going on. Who give a damn what’s those big asses is playing now?
Go away, don disturb my blog!
Yeah, I must admit this… Why i say so? this gotta go back to last Saturday (13/9/08). I was attended my frend’s wedding dinner @ ipoh.
This is de story… My frend’s mom is de Lab asst of my secondary school… And I know she will definitely invite my school teachers to attend her son’s wedding dinner. Frankly, I am looking forward to meet my secondary school teachers on these day. It’s already 10 years… hell.
Thing happened not like what I expect… All my old frends, ex-classmates seat jz a table next to my teachers’. But seems nobody wanna take de 1st step out… especially guys. Yeah, I observed it for whole nite. Only gals ”braved enough” to walked there & said hi to de teachers. And most of de guys is bussied “yam sing”, pulling someone to lead de “man team” to say hi… Ya, I was one of them…
I don know, I jz felt “malu” to say hi to my teachers…. This is utterly impossible & unbelievable, and it happened.
Until today, I still cant believe this shit happen… Come on, man! This is jz ain’t my style… What de fuck wrong with me?? Am I carried my balls home last week??? Why this kidda shit heppened??? This really give a big “X” in my life… hahaha! Who knows, this might be de last time to meet my teachers… and i jz let it slip…. for God’ sake.
Maybe, we all don wanna face that embarrassment (intro yaself but ya teachers cant recall at all…). Yup, this is understand. But still… Gosh, I feel like I shldn’t bothered this… Im jz missed de good sharing moments. SIGN.
This is something I messed up.
But, I do have a jolly nite with all my frends there. Long while x catch up, some even since 1997, de year we graduated…Gosh, never tot tt i can meet them again. Happy & kidda “surprise” when heard tt they already a mother/father… hahaha. And this is my false again…. I seldom join de gathering… Bet i should show face in next gathering.
When talking joke with all this frends, feel like we are back to young time. Hahaha! I do have this feeling, feel like we all in school time again! hahahaha… Happy to c u all, mates!
And here, I would like to dedicate my best wishes to all my teachers & my fellows - all de best & happy life! 
My friend (a BBC who having her vacation in Malaysia currently) is extremely can’t understand why Ahmad Ismail, such an extreme racist politician could still survive in this era. She asked, but I failed to answer…
Maybe this is a big “culture shock” to her. But majority of de Rakyat also get shocks with his statement. I bet.
Thought this will be die quietly after apologies from DPM, who representing UMNO. But in politic world, everything can become big matter. Ahmad (de fella) seems don appreciated what his big boss did for him. Still can’t stop talking extreme stuff in front of de press. Amazing, huh??
Come on, mate. Regardless u’re Chinese, Malay, or Indian. Can u take those extreme words? Do u still support if ya leader keep talking crap (big crap)?? Ask yaself, who else not de “penumpang” b4 Merdeka???
Can anyone talk to this fella, that his political show is out-dated. No one gonna appreciate his talks. Maybe only some “shit-head” like him, will supports.
I not gonna talk more here, but I would like to attach some words/statement by Ahmad Ismail:
“I want them to know, I want them to take this as a warning from the Malays. Malays and Muslims have been provoked many times. We have been patient because we want to maintain stability in the country,” he said.
“Remember! The patience of Malays and Muslims has its limits. Do not push us to the wall, where we will be forced to reject the Chinese for the sake of our survival.
“If what I say sounds too strong for BN, take this as a warning from the Malays and Muslims as this has nothing to do with Umno. Do not pressure Umno leaders until they are caught in a dilemma.”
We faced de 13th May before. And we all know it cost us a lots. We are just celebrated de 51st Merdeka day. Will u let this kind of shit to mess up ya life?
This gonna be a short article. After this 51 fucking yrs of Merdeka. I gonna say, nothing proud to say it loud to de world tt we are on our track toward 2020.
Hell, don fool yaself. Open ya fucking eyes and look ard. Don jz read de fuck up political party’s newpaper, it not gonna help u to open ya eyes. it’s all fool there, telling u all de man made beautiful story…
Ketuanan Melayu, PTPDN shldn’t increase its approvals to non-malay, MARA is only for Malays, Parasite in this country…. Hell, we r on our track to racism… Extreme one.
Merdeka: Dream or nightmare?
3 more days to Beijing Olmypic. Big coverage in Local Chinese paper, internet, and rising up coverage in TV. Maybe Im sensetive… But I feel this time event get de biggest coverage fr media…
Maybe u don agree. But the volume of de news coverage, and de "heat" of the event is something different from previous. Good or bad abt de event/chinese govt/preparations… I believe it got de most attentions.
Sometimes, I wonder. Is it ‘coz of China get de chance to host this event? When It already a focus point to de world. Getting this hosting job will only let de outside world (especially Western) pay more attentions to this "land of Dragon"?
Or, maybe this is de 1st time for China hosting de Olmypic. Not surprise to gain de world’s attentions… Especially de Chinese Society, in Malaysia or worldwide. I am more convince with this say.
Maybe I prefer to read de mandarin news when it’s report abt de event. And give me a wrong concept that de world really put their eyes on China. Im unsured with this. Better u tell me what u think of this.
Of course, we cant ignore de hard works by de Chinese Govt all this while. They really pay a huge supports no matter fr financial, changing policies, control de transportation to lower de air pollutions… It’s kidda impress to see this all.
They always some objections out there, for sure. And most of it coursed by some bad policies… which I don wanna judge it here. Coz I x see de detail…. I let de ppl of China to make judgement.
As an oversea Chinese, I am happy to see China hosting this kind of big event. But it jz make me feel happy for them if they r finished their works successfully. Nothing much beside this.
Of course, I would like to see how their gonna present the truly Chinese cultural to de world, to lead those in de wrong track back to de right track. I hope de event art director, Chang YiMo will not mess this up.
Last, let’s cheers up for Olmypic 2008!!!
