13
October
2008
Do u experienced this before? U keep a letter/email for some times, and u take it out. Read it again.
I did. An email tt I keep in my email box since 2002, September. Read it, and my tear cames out… Not sad, but I feel joy. Feel so touch with this email, although I already know the contain.
I appreciated what this friend wrote to me, when Im was down. Appreciate de big smile in the letter, and definately to da great friendship since then.
Kinda weird, never feel this way b4… never tot this email can light up my day…
I don know y, seems Im kept reflash back my Uni life recently. Fr de music, email, photos, even frends. It seems like a strong wave come toward me, and I am feel glad.
Yes, Im not in good mood recently. I know is my work brings me into this messes. I cant even smile once I step in office. Only feel release when I met my friends on weekend.
I know, this is de fact. The fact that lead me keep reflashing my good, sweet memories… And this is one of de ways to calm myself.
I know it’s not gonna be a comfortable rides. But I will cross it with my speed, for the sake of my pride!
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11
October
2008
A song tt always remind me… my UK life in 2002. Dedicate this song to those whose shares de happy moments v me, And my best wishes to you all. Love you all! ^_^回到过去 by 周杰伦
一盏黄黄旧旧的灯时间在旁闷不吭声寂寞下手毫无分寸
不懂得轻重之分沉默支撑跃过陌生
静静看著凌晨黄昏你的身影失去平衡慢慢下沉
黑暗已在空中盘旋该往哪我看不见
也许爱在梦的另一端无法存活在真实的空间
想回到过去试著抱你在怀里羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你的看的世界,想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜想回到过去试著让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧这样挽留不知还来不来得及想回到过去
思绪不断阻挡著回忆播放盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去
一转身孤单已躺在身旁
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5
October
2008
What a long holidays. How’s ya holiday, mate. I hope u have a good one. Basically it was kinda bored for the pass few days, beside travel to south & meeting friends.
Dined with friends on last Saturday, n we discussed some topics, of coz some problems as well. Friend said, it kinda tired & bored trying to fix things for others. It is jz unnecessary & shouldn’t be bear by one shoulder.
Sure, u could choose to flail abt & try to fight to put things back into the little boxes u want them to live in, but what’s the point? you’ll only tire yaself out.
I’m not telling u to be selfish. But we gonna let thing go, in some situation. Of course, u could give ya advices & opinions. but hey, it still up to them whether to take it or not. U cant do more than this. Or, it might bring hurts.
Sometime, ppl jz need our ears. Less opinion is preferable. And pls bear in mind, do not take de responsible to fix stuff for jz b’coz u worry they cant handle it. Yes, u can help but only if they really need helps. Or when they r in de wrong track. Bet ya frend is wise enough to face their problem.
U might not agree with me. What’s wrong we help frend when they r in troublem? Nothing wrong. But remember, everyone have their own way to fix thing up. Everyone have their own ruler in mind.
I’m not saying to push away all the responsibilities of as a frend. But this is crucial for us to know where should we stop for awhile, before continue to hang out.
Pal, don deprive yaself of surprises & spontaneous adventures. Sometime, knowing all the answers is not always advisable.
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2
October
2008
Im glad tt we did it. We see it with our own eyes… And yes, we all gets the meaning of life from this Handicapped & Mentally Disabled Children Association JB.
It was a meaningful trip. Meaningful day to Siz, especially. Of course, KS & me. De journey is ain’t far, coz we’re chatting & joking on our way to Senai. But, we all knows what is de main purpose of this trip. We are doing something tat we seldom do in our “bc life”. Yes, we all knew it. [Dear Siz, I not jz focused on seafoods... I really knew de main purpose...:(]
I aways agree with this, ” Don get kids, if u r not ready to be a mother/father”. Some much preparations b4 u see ya own kid, this is no joke.
R u prepared for some “unforesee” situation? Like de baby ain’t like others normal babies? What u gonna do if u’re so God damn bad luck?? Raise de kid & give double loves to him/her, or leave them behind. And u walk away???
Im not in emotion… Im jz see this lively examples in JB. It wa a strong wave coming toward us, and we felt de pains. Personally, I felt tt I am “useless” in that time.
Im a normal 29 year old male, but I got no fucking ideas what I can do, or what can i do… Fuck, I don like these feelings!
Looking to their smaling faces. Their naives. Their passions. I felt tt Im kinda stupid. I don know what shld i do. De question mark is getting bigger & bigger in my fucking mind.
I believe, 3 of us were in pain for seeing this. obverse, KS was de one with strongest feeling??? He’s jz quiet during the visit. While Siz & me still able to raised out some questions.
De centre is not only taking cares on children, but also old folks. With assistances from abt 30 angels. Most of the angels in de house are foreigners. Fr India, fr Sri Lanka, Fr Bangladesh… of course, local’s love as well.
Don feel me wrong when u heard they r fr India, Sri Langka, or Bangladesh… They ain’t like those foreign workers, working long hours but under treated nigga. They all here jz for the kids & old folks. They take cares of them, make sure they feels love.
Like de guy who guilded us during de visit. He is de person in charge of the centre (soli, I cant recall his name… sorry again). He’s fr Sri Langka, and he is with de centre for 3 yrs. Before this, he spend his 9 yrs services to other centers in Malaysia.
Let me call him “Angel” here, due to I 4gotten his name… Angel said, this ain’t an ec job… First of all, you must love this job. without this passion, u’re feel hard for the next step.
This task really need yr patience. Remember, most of them cant express their “thank you” to u. But u gotta give them uncut loves. Ask yaself, will u leave ya lover if he/she never show de same thing tt u gave them??? A stupid question, but its a straight forward question.
We spend abt 2 hrs there, and leave on 12pm. Their lunch time. Like de angel said, they cant say thank you to us. This doesn’t matter. We r happy… happy coz we’re able to make this trip happen. Happy to see they r lovely ppl ard them, willing to assist them! Happy to see they live happily. Happy tt I got my family, friends, ppl who love, caring me! And definately a Happy Birthday & meaningful trip to Siz Siz.
幸福,不是必然的. 我们真的要珍惜身边的一切一切. …
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